I have said it before....

guess it is really true this time, I AM not a great mother I feel like I have tried but I just cant take the crap anymore. Alex moved out I dont know for how long it will be she is living with a friend as of yesterday. I cant take the lies,stealing,she has in the past used drugs and taken more meds than she is supposed to she doesnt do her school work etc. She is really confused right now i think and Im not sure what to do to help her so she is on her own. She stole money from me and somethings that are really no big deal, but they are MINE why cant she understand that? I must admit although I love her, I no longer have a headache and I dont feel stressed. I know I know people are saying why would you let a 15 yr old do what she wants? And I can understand that, but it not only affects me but rich and the boys. I dont know when and if she will be back we will see I guess I almost dont want her here right now ya I know that sounds bad. I have tried to get her into the childrens home, girls home etc but they wont take her well that is not entirely true, the girls home would but I cant afford to pay them to take her. Now to let her bio father know that she no longer lives here wont that be fun!

We will be going to KC for an appt for Owen on the 4th of April we are taking him and O and mil to great wolf lodge I hope they have fun we all have been thru the ringer lately, I have been consumed with alex and her issues I dont feel I have given the boys my all. I hope its fun we will be there for 2 nights cant wait! Im not good at praying and I do try but if you would pls say a little prayer for our family and my sanity I would appreciate it!
Best,Kirsten

Blog Challenge from da OASIS

*Where did you meet your husband? on a blind date
*What was the first thing you said to your husband? hi
*Where was your first date? players sports bar
*Where was your first kiss? his house a wk after we met
*Where did you get married? Good Shephard Episcopal Church
*How long have you been married? 10 yrs
*How long did you date? 8 months
*Long or short engagement? short
*How old is he?40
*Who eats more?He does
*Who said I love you first?He did
*Who is taller?He is just by and inch
*Who sings better?Oh def. Rich he used to sign Karaoke
*Who is smarter? umm probably him
*Whose temper is worse? mine
*Who does the laundry? I do
*Who does the dishes? the dishwasher but i load them :-)
*Who pays the bills?I used to but he has his bills and I have mine
*Who mows the lawn?Rich
*Who cooks dinner? we both do usually me but when he doesnt work he loves cooking
*Who drives when you are together?depends i'd sa its 50/50
*Who is more stubborn? Rich shhh dont tell him I said so
*Whose parents do you see the most? he sees his parents 3x a wk and I see my mom every wk or so
*Who proposed?he did
*Who has more friends?Rich, I dont have any
*Who has more siblings? he does....unless you count the step sibs.

So much going on!

The kids have all been sick well alex just once but the boys have been on and off for a few wks....now there is strep and lice going around at school. We are good so far knock on wood!
We didnt make it to the KC trip but are trying to reschedule and now the dr wants us to also see a Neuro there as well, Im hoping we can get the trips within the same time frame so we only have to go once. It is so hard having to go elsewhere even tho it is only a couple hrs Owen wont enjoy being in the van that long. When he is done he is D O N E done!
I got a call from assistive technologies yesterday morning and they said they had a gait trainer for Owen WOOHOO they are extremely hard to come by so I was very blessed to have already gotten one for him I hope when he gets used to it he will try and walk. It is difficult sometimes for me to realize he may never walk, I am OK with it but I just want one or two steps I dont mind if Owen needs a walker I would really love to see him take a step one day.

Alex, to make it short and sweet she is having a little bit of issues with her ex friend nothing like the racial comments but when is it going to end? Now she is going to mug her supposedly. Alex is being such a pain, I found out 2 wks ago she is failing WHY? Well she chooses not to turn in her work and suit up for P.E. I am at the point of this:she is 15,in high school if she does or doesnt that is up to her I cant make her do things I have tried I guess now is the time for her to make it or break it. Ethan is doing fairly well, he is a very smart kid and has learned alot this yr. They want him to go to a transitional 1st grade class,because he is having some trouble with some things...it is TOTALLY my fault as when Owen was born we got busy caring for him and didnt work with cutting letters numbers etc. Ethan really has come a long way since starting kdg. He can do great he is just still fairly immature...special thanks to dad on that one!
I am getting bday supplies together ethan wants a pirate party I think we are going to ask the kids to dress as pirates! Ethan told me the other day, I want to invite my cousin and he is invited to get me a present. WHAT A SILLY BOY! He def. has my sense of humor! I guess I better get the kids ready for school.
Best,kirsten

More lo's, KC trip etc

I did 3 count em 3 lo's last night I hope the mojo is back :-)) I dont know I have 3 still unfinished that Im not sure what to do with I really need to use more sketches I guess! The 1st one is Yolanda Williams from Simple Scrapbook Mag I totally lifted I love her style! The second is my lift of her lo. 3rd one is a lo depicting how I feel some days....like running away course I never would but stress and depression stink! Lastly I have had this picture since summer and finally got around to scrapping it. Ethan my guy one of my nephews and my neice at the fountains.

I got a call from the Developmental ped in Overland Park that I have been trying to get Owen in to see well finally they agreed to see him so our appt is set for Feb. 8th at 10:30 not looking forward to the drive its only about 3hrs but I hate riding maybe i should make Rich have me drive awhile at least until we get closer lol. One good thing tho is that Archiver's is like 2 miles from the office we are going so I told Rich I wanted to stop there WOOHOO never been and he better give me some time looking around! hehe

Best,

Kirsten

AHHH

Freakin' van again has a dead battery GAWSH what is up with the dang thing? I have had it for about 4 yrs now and just in the last 3 wks have I had a problem with it WHY? I dont flippin get it. Oh well maybe tonight Rich will actually be able to go to walmart which he HATES to get me a new battery I hope it works and its not a major thing.

I really cant afford a new vehicle right now at least not until the credit cards are all paid off come on w2s :-)

So I have another great blog to add today this chick rocks the lo's for sure I wish I had half the talent these ladies have they are awesome! Check it out:http://rowanz.wordpress.com/

Gotta try and get some work done happy friday!
Best,
Kirsten

Move Along!

Hehe that is one of Ethan's fave song's EVER I dont know if it is because of the Baraki's or what but he loves it! I like it too.

Things are better today except the damn van now has a freakin' dead battery ugh 3 problems in the last wk

with it I wonder if it is a curse? Ok so maybe no curse but its annoying for sure! Well we have a new family member Rich and I both agreed we wouldnt have another dog accept Oscar but I think he felt bad about making me give up my babies it was incredibly heartbreaking.

INTRODUCING.......CHEWY!!!! he is the CUTEST lil Silky! yeah I know he is boy LOL but couldnt resist putting the bow in his hair he wont care at least thats I tell myself. Rich says: you do know that he is boy right? MEN.

I have been checking this gal's blog out for awhile and have seen her work at scrapbook.com I absolutely LOVE LOVE LOVE her work I am adding her to my blog so if ya get a chance check her out she is truely amazing!

http://stopitsscrappintime.blogspot.com/

Best,

Kirsten

Thank you

for coming into my driveway and throwing whatever in hell you threw at my window to break it out!
thank you for allowing me to spend 130.00 on a new window that I really can afford at this time.
thank you for causing me to break down over such a trivial thing in front of everyone.
thank you for making an otherwise ok day into another frustrating and upsetting day.
thank you for destrying my property I realize this van may not be very nice to you but it lets me cart my kids around and has enough room for the wheelchair that Owen needs.
thank you for letting me call the police and make a report even tho there is nothing they can do I appreciate wasted time.
thank you for after being upset....to see what little humor there is in this situation IE I didnt have to lock it because it wont do any good.
I certainly hope you whoever you are had a good laugh and dont come back cuz if ya do I will be waiting!